aaah… I am just revelling in being at home tonight. Last night I went straight from work over to Kristy’s, and we went from there to the movies, and I only got home at about 9:45pm and went straight to bed. I don’t like not having time to unwind and relax. Not that going to the movies wasn’t relaxing, but … oh well. i think i’m too attached to comfort zones 
I love my room (especially now that it’s tidy again, it feels 10 times bigger) and i love my laptop (i will have to take it for a trip into the city soon so it gets to use it’s wireless capabilities on the crappy our.brisbane provider). And I’m really comfortable right now in my felix pyjamas. theyre really cute. so maybe i’m too attached to material possessions and i need to take a break in some buddhist retreat to break my attachment to the physical world – because you can’t reach nirvana if you’re still pining after those awesome new cons or the latest version of your favourite jeans just released in a new wash ^_^
Well. whatever. I’m far too content right now to mind. Rosie is stressing about her job, it’s too difficult for her apparently. I think she has a skewed idea of what work actually is. it’s not meant to be fun. I won’t say any more about it in case she reads this and gets angry at me, but… meh. i don’t want to argue with someone over what they should or shouldn’t be doing, it’s definitely not my place to say.
a friend of mine today at work (who often irritates me so much that i wish i didn’t know her) was going on about her friend. I’ll start at the very beginning (a very good place to start). Her friend, who we shall call Tree, found out a couple of weeks ago that she is pregnant. She told her boyfriend, and they spoke to both their parents about it. They talked the whole thing over, but in the end it was Tree’s decision as to whether she wanted to keep the baby. Tree is 23 (not to young to have a baby i know, but it depends on the person) and she has only been going out with her boyfriend for 4 months. It’s a pretty stressful situation to be in. So my friend was going on about how she was really excited that she would get to be an aunty (not by blood of course, just a term for the way she would feel i guess) but that she knew Tree and didn’t think she would be able to hack it and knew she’d just chicken out. That was the first thing that kind of irked me. Anyway, today my friend came over and said that Tree had made her decision, that she wasn’t keeping the baby and had booked in for an appointment for a termination. She started on about how she had gone off at her, telling her she was selfish, had disappointed everyone who was getting so excited about it, was letting everyone down, better open up her eyes and start living in the real world etc. I just turned around as soon as she started saying this and stared at the computer. it made me so mad. I hate conflict and so I didn’t want to tell her exactly what i thought, but then she finished and said “ok well seeya later then” and i said “hang on a minute. you’re just going to say all of that and then walk away?” and she said “you weren’t listening – what did i say?” so i relayed to her what she had basically just said, and then said “it’s not about you or anyone else, it’s about her. It’s her decision, if she does not feel capable of doing it, and doesn’t feel strong enough or whatever, then it’s probably for the best that she doesn’t.” what i felt like saying was “you’re the selfish one for making it all about you and your stupid expectations.. it’s like she has a baby and wow everything’s wonderful a new family!” she’s the one not living in reality. GRRR. then she said “and she doesn’t realise that doing this will change her life, it’s like a huge change and will alter everything for her” which is what I had said to her about Tree having the baby, just yesterday!!! She was using almost exact phrasing I had used, but instead of referring to having a baby as a life changer, she was referring to the termination as changing her life! Agh!!!!! she has no idea. I’m so mad. She’s fun to hang out with when she’s not spouting her opinions on things, but as soon as she gets up on her soapbox, i’d rather be anywhere than there, listening to her shitty, dogmatic unrealistic ideals. It makes me hate her. and i dislike myself for not being able to tell her what i’m thinking really, in no uncertain terms.
Well. lunch tomorrow with Noelle. We’re going to Nandos, then having chai for dessert. We’ve been meaning to do chai for a while now, and tomorrow’s good because noelle has just been on a conference all weekend so she’ll be able to tell me all about it.
We had team lunch today at O’Malley’s, it was pretty good. Team leader wasn’t there, and everyone had a drink with their lunch. Brooke and I had vodka lemon lime & bitters. I think i should learn to like beer, because when you’re at a party, the good stuff runs out real quick and there’s always beer left. it’s cheap too. But vodka’s my drink 
i like vodka, i’m used to it, it goes well with anything because as soon as you mix it with something, it takes on the flavour of whatever it’s in. At chris’s party on sunday night he was telling me about long island iced tea, and that it was the best thing he’s ever tasted but you have to remind the person to put crushed mint leaves in the bottom. I want to try one. After team lunch I didn’t really get anything done.
i want to call my laptop felix. that’s one of the names I want to call one of my kids, when i eventually have them. It could be boy or girl, doesn’t matter. Felix is a cool name. I also like Elliott, for a girl’s name. Melinda was saying today that when she has kids she wants to have twins, because there’s two done in one go. I want twins too, then they’d always have someone their age, they wouldn’t be so scared when they start school etc. It’s dumb that i’m thinking about it since I definitely won’t be having kids any time soon. Maybe when i’m like… 28-30. depends how life goes i suppose. I want to go to uni, get a job doing something i really like, know the person i am with is the right one etc.
Anyway. Simpsons calls.