What a day, eh? I feel okay now, but there was a point this afternoon, i thought i was going to pass out from anger and frustration.But now I feel pretty much fine. I guess it’s sort of like how the air is clean after rain, or the atmosphere is less charged and clearer after a thunderstorm. Everything in nature seems to be like everything else in some way or another (wow what a deep observation *wank*)
Back to work tomorrow. I really don’t like sunday afternoons. They are probably the worst time of the week for me, apart from tuesdays. The majority of my days off have been on tuesdays. Last week I stayed home Monday, and then I felt sick on tuesday as well, but I thought “nah, this is just me and my tuesday-itis” but then I when I got home on tuesday afternoon I felt even worse, so i had to stay home wednesday! That’s sort of like the boy who cried wolf, only I didn’t believe myself! which is a whole lot sadder I think. Maybe it’s better that I didn’t stay home on tuesday, I wouldn’t want to build a reputation for a chronic tuesday-taker-offer.
I gotta go to the dentist this thursday. Fun! I’m not afraid of the dentist anymore. I used to be, but now i just feel like it’s okay, everything will be fine. Even when they were drilling into my wisdom tooth, and they couldn’t make it go to sleep, i was still okay with it. The dental assistant girl said i was a good patient. I don’t know if that’s just something they say to everyone who doesn’t scream, or everyone they ever work on. It probably is. I mean, they charge enough, they should add in a complimentary compliment.
I guess I should go to sleep. I wanted to watch episode 2 tonight, because i like the imagery in most of it, it’s cool. Lauren says she can’t get past how Anakin and Padme are in love and in the first movie he’s like 8 or something, and she still looks exactly the same. I don’t care. I watch it in the context it is offered. Hayden Christensen and Natalie Portman are in love. They look okay together. Apart from Hayden’s irritating under-acting, and his monotonous monotone, it’s quite good. And that Bobba, gosh golly what a funny guy. Also, next to dinotopia, which I also attempted to watch today, Star Wars is oscar worthy. I don’t know what they were thinking. What’s with that girl’s head? but the guy who plays David is hot. so that redeems it i suppose, but not wholly. only the parts where he is visible. Also watched Camp last night, and that Vlad guy is cute too. Gawd I sound like a 16 year old grrl or something: Last night i txt chad. what a hottie. 2 cute 4 wrds! i hope he asks me to the prom. I mean, we don’t even have a prom over here. And I’m not 16. And usually I’m quite depressing and angry. So before you make a decision on me, you should read some of my previous diary entries. Although that might make you hate me, so read at your own risk.
Anyway, I don’t know why i’m talking to a non-existent audience. I guess it comes from when I worked for the newspaper. You always have to pre-empt peoples’ opinions of your own work. For example: I know my grammar is terrible. I’m just not in the right mind-frame for amazingly put together well thought out sentences and paragraphs. It’s my diary. I don’t know why i even care, but i guess that’s just another thing that makes me me.
I was just chewing on a cd case, and then i could taste spit (it was my own spit by the way, just because i was chewing on the edge of it. Don’t ask me why, I don’t know. I just suddenly realised I was chewing on a cd case), and i guess that’s why warm water tastes so bad. Because it reminds me of saliva. And maybe that’s why I don’t really like the taste of water. Because it doesn’t have a taste, like saliva. Unless you’ve been eating something really flavourful and then you can taste it for a while afterwards. I’m trying to think of something, but i can’t.
Anyway, my cat is waiting for me to put it to bed. So I’m going to go read some Harry Potter 5 and then go to sleep. I probably won’t be able to read too much of it, because my eyes are already closing, but maybe i will because sometimes when you’re tired and you stand up and start moving around, you lose your tiredness. Which is why it sucks when you’re trying to get tired and you read, and you’re just on the edge of sleep and you have to then fold the page (or put a bookmark in for you bibliophiles) then put the book down, then turn off the lamp (it’s worse if you don’t have a lamp and you have to actually get off to turn off the overhead light) and then you lie back again and realise you’re fully awake, and then the process starts all over again. Usually i just get comfortable and sleep comes along on it’s own.
I’ve never really had a problem with sleep, but that’s how i know that i’m really stressed out – if I’m having trouble sleeping.
Anyways, i keep getting sidetracked by my train of thought, i think because i haven’t written for ages. Time to go. Now. Goodbye.