I am in such a stupid mood today… (oh i just love to use those dots)… there i go again. Anyways, my counsellor told me that having depression throughout my adolescence sort of meant I didn’t really have an adolescence… And what that means is that I didn’t go out and enjoy being young and *free* (so they say). Now I’m old and bitter! well i’m not really.. but I’ve been trying to figure out what sorts of things teenagers do that i didn’t do… I’m still a teenager for the next year and a half, so I’ve still got a chance to make the most of it… Now let me see… My sister used to go bush bashing with her friends in a tarago, which is pretty stupid around here considering we have so much scrub and crap… and I don’t think it’d be all that fun anyway. Is it just that, when you’re happy and with your friends, fun things just happen? like, someone will just suggest something or you’ll go somewhere and it’ll turn out to be great? Agh i don’t know… maybe I am too old… I honestly can’t remember ever having fun in high school, even when I went out with my friends to places… except once when I had a crush on a guy, and both our groups of friends went out together, and it turned out that he liked me too… but then I didn’t like him anymore because… well i guess because he was attainable. you always want what you can’t have. Will I be this way forever? *sigh*
But anyway,I have a great weekend ahead of me! I get paid this friday, and i’ll be going to grafton (biggest hole on earth) with my neighbours, and I’m going to buy my sister a birthday present ^_^. Grafton may be a big pile of poo but it has some good stores, and they actually have fast food there.. like maccas and kfc and pizza hut (which isn’t really fast…) and I’m going to get some clothes! and um…. maybe a cd! and remind me not to forget a new pump for my fish tank filter…poor fishy wishies.
*^_^* happy happy day.